this has been the most overwhelming weekend, its making me feel sick and confused and my heart is being ripped out for so many different reasons like fuq
i remember when i used to cry and bluebelle would come and snuggle with me because she knew. i miss her. what if i don’t see her again before her life ends. i can’t imagine mum is looking after her all that well. fuck i don’t know how to deal.
you fucking put more and more pressure on me to take action against my mum telling me it was “for my own good” and acting like you knew what was best for me and you had my back and were my best friend, and then go ahead and don’t talk to me for a month. what the fuck i am sick of your bullshit you are not a friend.
went to andrew’s after town wednesday night, was so fucking maggot and i’m 99% sure he bought me a drink on the way out too like WHY ANDREW WHY. went back to his and actually had the best sex omg was nothing like the first few times like i was dying holy shit. went to the loo and got my perioddddddd looooooooooool went back to andrew and was like “lol you either shredded my gina or i got my period” and he laughed for a while because he thought it was funny that he may have shredded my gina and then laughed because i actually said gina. and then was like “do you want me to go find you a tampon?” and i was like yes pls and then he went into the bathroom and i could hear him rustling through the draws and he came back with two liners and it was the cutest and most hilarious and most mortifying moment of my life and then he lay on the bed and i told him to not look and block his ears while i opened the liners and put them on my knickers lol and then he gave me a jumper and a pair of shorts and then we went to sleep and it was cute and then in the morning i was like yeah lol not gonna hang around and then he walked me back home and when we said buy he looked like he was gonna kiss me but then didn’t and just kinda poked his tongue out at me and was like bye and as he walked away i cracked up and he looked back and was all sheepish and laughed annnd it was just a great night altogether and i’m not even mad i got my period except i’m a bit mad because it meant i couldn’t stay at his house the next night and his parents were going away boo
